When I was in the midst of an eating disorder and would run for hours on end, I “motivated” myself by telling myself how much I suck and saying “come on fatty”.
Now I am trying to get back into running by doing the couch 2 5k program again. It feels defeating sometimes to have to start over. I used to run for at least an hour a day and even got up to 12 miles.
Now I’m starting over, and my goal is to be able to run 5k consistently. When I start the app and it shows the runs I’ll be doing, I get intimidated, start thinking, there’s no way I can do this.
But now… I can use positive self talk and I say “you’re a badass, you got this, you can do it” and I do.
I am so proud of myself for completing the goal for that day, but more importantly, I am proud that I can sometimes have positive self talk.